Category Archives: Mental Health

I’m back. Again.

It all started when I saw the annual charge on my credit card bill. But I’m glad I logged in again, checked in, re-read it all. I’m so glad Csz is reminded of how wonderful she has been to me for the last 30 years. How lucky am I to have met her on the day I moved into my dorm? Very, very lucky. I can’t imagine my adulthood without her, and I hope she believes me every time I tell her. I hope some readers know what it’s like to have a platonic soul mate.

Many things have changed in the past 5 years since I posted last, but I love and am proud of how most of it – most of me – is the same. More on that later.

Right now, I’m going to get used to the format again. See you soon.

World Suicide Prevention Day 2020

Good god. I’m setting a calendar reminder for all of the September 9ths for all of the future ever: “Avoid social media tomorrow

The Worst? – Seeing or Not Seeing Manic Symptoms

Trying to decide which is the worst: Being told I am displaying symptoms of mania when I don’t see them (& they are legit), or displaying symptoms of mania when I do see them (& they are legit)?

Does there have to be a worst? Yes. And it is whichever I am in at the time. And I usually hate myself at the time, or the “myself” that is bipolar and not me as a person that’s more than bipolar. And at the least, I question my very existence and how I present myself and what’s real.

And And And

How to Write a Story Without Details?

Am figuring out how to write the post “Psych Ward: Patient Transformation” without using too many details. I have a wonderful story about a patient who was in when I was, but don’t know how to write it. 

Do I just go with a fake initial (J.*  — *Not the real name)? I want to be respectful that it’s his story, not mine.

Suggestions?

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